A humbling experience
On Sunday I did card readings for myself and the intent of my card readings was to pull one card for each week in January. That card would give me the general theme for the week.
For this week, my message from the card I pulled was about accepting other's help. As you know, yesterday I created brochures for my new service offering and received lots of great feedback from some of my friends. I had thought that would be the end of the receipt of help and boy was I wrong :)
This morning, I went to the post office to collect a book that I had ordered pre-Christmas - Metaphysical Anatomy by Evette Rose. I came across the existence of this book by chance last year, when for some reason I was drawn to a video by Teal Swan and she mentioned the book. This book is essentially like an encyclopedia of a number of medical conditions and goes into depth about the emotional or potential traumatic underlying cause of that medical condition. Now if you know me well, you know that this sort of stuff is right down my alley so I was more than happy to pounce on it when the time was right.
2 years ago as MM and I were attending a weekend course in Melbourne on neuroskeletal techniques, we met this lovely lady. Both of us were happy to chat to ourselves and than when lunchtime came, this lovely lady came up to us and asked if she could have lunch with us so of course we said yes. She ended up being a shaman. At that stage of my life, I was really confused where I was going spiritually and was at the beginning of this whole journey (having only been into the first 2 months or my massage course). I had discussed this with MM (and it was this discussion that put me in contact with SK) but this topic was also discussed with the shaman. She asked me what my values were and at that time, I was dumbfounded. I had no idea what my values were - how could I find out what they were? The shaman told me that my values would underpin how I lived my life and that it was OK for my values to change. After the weekend was over, I conversed with her over email for a bit and she sent me a list of questions and after that we figured out what my values were which was great.
I hadn't really been in contact with her since then but I had seen her discussing a number of things on a Facebook page around the technique that we had learnt. Just over Xmas she added me as a friend. Today, I realised why.
I have excema and myopia (near sightedness). Both of these physical ailments have existed since my childhood. From as far as I can remember, the excema started from when I was young (I think just around pre-teens) and the short sightedness started when I was 11-12 years old. Over the last few months through my own research I started to wonder whether I could actually proactively change this - i.e. get rid of it for good - if I could understand the underlying cause. My issue was not knowing what the underlying cause was - that led me to the Metaphysical Anatomy book.
This morning, the shaman found out that was the reason why I bought the book. She sent me a private message and we had a quick discussion about my excema. I gave her the details of where it was on my body, what made it worse, etc and then she wrote me a paragraph explaining what it was. I read that paragraph and tears started flowing because deep down I knew she was absolutely spot on and I hadn't even realised it. Excema is about not loving yourself or not accepting yourself. My issue stemmed from my childhood where I felt that my parents did not love me. Being in the position I am in now I can kind of see where that would have come from (I actually had this discussion with my bf early on in our relationship) but I never really hit home that it was the cause of my excema. I always felt like I had to gain their acceptance. I actually still get a teary reaction as I'm writing this right now, and as the shaman said, you know you are speaking directly to a person's soul when they begin to release tears - it's such a humbling position to be in.
This is the help that I needed to receive. Since then we have booked in a session for us to explore this further so we can get rid of it once and for all. Just given the fact that she was able to do that to me in one paragraph means that I know that she will really be able to assist me in releasing these issues. The other thing is that is humbling is that I thought I had it all together - but I clearly don't. It's only when I can be vulnerable, realise my own traumas and move on from them can I become a better healer. Healer heal thyself first, then I can be in a better position to assist others in their own healing.
For this week, my message from the card I pulled was about accepting other's help. As you know, yesterday I created brochures for my new service offering and received lots of great feedback from some of my friends. I had thought that would be the end of the receipt of help and boy was I wrong :)
This morning, I went to the post office to collect a book that I had ordered pre-Christmas - Metaphysical Anatomy by Evette Rose. I came across the existence of this book by chance last year, when for some reason I was drawn to a video by Teal Swan and she mentioned the book. This book is essentially like an encyclopedia of a number of medical conditions and goes into depth about the emotional or potential traumatic underlying cause of that medical condition. Now if you know me well, you know that this sort of stuff is right down my alley so I was more than happy to pounce on it when the time was right.
2 years ago as MM and I were attending a weekend course in Melbourne on neuroskeletal techniques, we met this lovely lady. Both of us were happy to chat to ourselves and than when lunchtime came, this lovely lady came up to us and asked if she could have lunch with us so of course we said yes. She ended up being a shaman. At that stage of my life, I was really confused where I was going spiritually and was at the beginning of this whole journey (having only been into the first 2 months or my massage course). I had discussed this with MM (and it was this discussion that put me in contact with SK) but this topic was also discussed with the shaman. She asked me what my values were and at that time, I was dumbfounded. I had no idea what my values were - how could I find out what they were? The shaman told me that my values would underpin how I lived my life and that it was OK for my values to change. After the weekend was over, I conversed with her over email for a bit and she sent me a list of questions and after that we figured out what my values were which was great.
I hadn't really been in contact with her since then but I had seen her discussing a number of things on a Facebook page around the technique that we had learnt. Just over Xmas she added me as a friend. Today, I realised why.
I have excema and myopia (near sightedness). Both of these physical ailments have existed since my childhood. From as far as I can remember, the excema started from when I was young (I think just around pre-teens) and the short sightedness started when I was 11-12 years old. Over the last few months through my own research I started to wonder whether I could actually proactively change this - i.e. get rid of it for good - if I could understand the underlying cause. My issue was not knowing what the underlying cause was - that led me to the Metaphysical Anatomy book.
This morning, the shaman found out that was the reason why I bought the book. She sent me a private message and we had a quick discussion about my excema. I gave her the details of where it was on my body, what made it worse, etc and then she wrote me a paragraph explaining what it was. I read that paragraph and tears started flowing because deep down I knew she was absolutely spot on and I hadn't even realised it. Excema is about not loving yourself or not accepting yourself. My issue stemmed from my childhood where I felt that my parents did not love me. Being in the position I am in now I can kind of see where that would have come from (I actually had this discussion with my bf early on in our relationship) but I never really hit home that it was the cause of my excema. I always felt like I had to gain their acceptance. I actually still get a teary reaction as I'm writing this right now, and as the shaman said, you know you are speaking directly to a person's soul when they begin to release tears - it's such a humbling position to be in.
This is the help that I needed to receive. Since then we have booked in a session for us to explore this further so we can get rid of it once and for all. Just given the fact that she was able to do that to me in one paragraph means that I know that she will really be able to assist me in releasing these issues. The other thing is that is humbling is that I thought I had it all together - but I clearly don't. It's only when I can be vulnerable, realise my own traumas and move on from them can I become a better healer. Healer heal thyself first, then I can be in a better position to assist others in their own healing.