The mojo is back!
Over the past few weeks I'd be lying if I was 100% OK. Whilst I know that I am definitely going on the path that is the right one for me, I'm an impatient person and also pretty much a perfectionist. The fact that I haven't been able to heal my mother really did affect me - in fact, I realise it affected me so much it dented my confidence in my own abilities as a healer.
That in turn led to a downward spiral where I unconsciously did not want to heal anyone, so the healing kitty never came out at work and because I was at that vibrational level, no one came up to me to ask for help, and I was cool with that.
I also felt that things had just stopped for me in terms of continuing down my path. The first client out of my group of friends never turned up as he ended up cancelling his appointment and schedules not lining up, and I hadn't heard a single thing from my college about the timetable and curriculum for the Diploma of Remedial Massage. In my mind, nothing was happening, and I couldn't understand why.
Add on top of that, last week I fell sick. No runny nose, no congestion, more of a big bout of coughing, fatigue, headaches and dizziness. I couldn't meditate, ad when I tried, it'll be stopped by bouts of coughing so I gave up. What the heck was going on?!
Over the past few weeks I had been getting the message of "Explore your options". I didn't know what it meant then, but earlier this week I decided to ask. Turns out the explore your options message was about me exploring my options in a number of areas of my life - the college I will study my remedial massage, my workplace and my friendships with other people.
So I got off my ass and did some research into colleges. I asked MM about any colleges that he knew, and he pointed me to one of them in the city. There were 3 that I was looking at and when I received the curriculum from the college MM was talking about, it looked far from professional, it was cheap and the lady did not answer my question. My gut was saying no way, and again I confirmed that by automatic writing with my guides.
I then somehow made my way to another college - this was is based in St Leonards. No ideal for the girl who lives on the other side of the bridge! Nevertheless, I received a call from a career consultant, and I have to admit, we had a fantastic conversation. He was asking the right questions, wanted to know what my goal for the future was, and when he found out my goal, he told me that the college had contacts in that industry and that was something I should perhaps think about. We were then talking about career changes and he told me he was reminded of his boyfriend when he was speaking to me - his boyfriend is also a lawyer who is looking to get out of the industry. Anyway, that led to an invite for me to meet him in person at the college and he'd take me around and take me through the curriculum so we can see whether the timing met what I needed - from a work perspective and a study perspective. I'd never had someone talk to me like that before about my studies and when he asked me what coffee I wanted waiting for me on Monday, it turns out we drink exactly the same - so we had a good laugh about that :P
Earlier that day, I was at a conference with some of my work mates. I noticed one of the girls tenderly touching her shoulder so I asked her what was wrong and I touched her shoulder. At that point, I knew exactly what was wrong, it was as hard as a rock and she was clearly in discomfort. I decided to go for her occiput region and massage that for just a minute or two and then when I went back to her shoulder, it had turned to mush. She was really impressed and quite frankly, I was chuffed with myself. Her and another workmate started talking about how much I had helped them from a healing perspective and I was really happy for that recognition - it then made me realise that the angels and spirit guides had been telling me all along that I had this - I just had to trust my intuition. It all made sense at that point, and my confidence was on the way back up.
Your intuition is such a powerful tool... Another example of it was my dear friend at work telling me about the pain she was having in her shoulders and I went straight to her jaw. There was no thought, it was "the underlying cause is here". She went to see SK yesterday and it turns out yup it was there, so SK worked it out of her system. Similarly, the same work mate told me about a girl she had referred to SK as well - she told me her family was so worried about her because she was completely drained of energy and had no joy in her life. That's definitely one for SK, but when I was told that, my instant thought was "there is something around her or in her that is draining her energy from a metaphysical perspective". I saw SK very briefly yesterday (I had a treatment with MM) and she confirmed that the poor girl had some daggers or spears in her solar plexus chakra that was the cause of all of the issues.
This week has been about big releases with the new moon and I'm no different to that. The above scenarios are an example of that, but I think the biggest one happened yesterday. MM prefers to work in the moment and has no interest in the "other side" of things, however he does acknowledge that it is there and it freaks him out. That's fine - he grounds me.. he grounds me a lot actually. He was working on a release around my psoas and illiacus area, and was explaining to me that it was the water and fire element that was restricted in my hips, he said there was anger, frustration, guilt, fear and grief that needed to be released. He told me that some was old stuff that just needed a flush, but some stuff was new. MM's practice is NEVER to delve into the emotional aspect because he doesn't want to get sucked into it, and for him, releasing the emotions through the breath is enough.. there is no need to go there. His advice to me is always along these lines. SK is the complete opposite - she goes into the emotions. I think I sit somewhere between both of them. Initially in my practice, I was much more on SK's end of the emotional spectrum, but now I'm coming down to meet the balance... which is good.
Anyway, MM did some craniosacral therapy on me and I knew it released some stuff, but I didn't know what. So I left his session feeling firmly grounded and feeling like playdough. At that point, SK also finished up with her client and waved me into her office so we could have a quick chin wag as, whilst we phone each other during the week, it was the first time I'd seen her in 2 weeks. So there I am chatting to her client (who's a stuntmaster btw) and MM is cracking SK's back (yes it is a funny and chillaxed environment when those two are around). All of a sudden, I could feel my body start vibrating at an incredibly high frequency. As SK's client was still there, I was trying to compose myself and wait for him to leave so I could ask SK what it was. I was freaking out - I didn't know why I was vibrating like that - it had never EVER happened to me before.
SK comes back and I asked her and I put my arm up and you could clearly see it was shaking. She told me she had evolved a number of levels over the past week, so when someone like me is in her presence, her energy amplifies it and I can feel it (I guess this is the same when I'm with MM and he does cranio... my body starts syncing with his because he is also an amplifier). I understood that, but I was like "I need to get this off - it's too much" - my hands were tingling and it was a much stronger sensation to when I feel energy in my hands. So she tried to do the hand thing to me to show me that it was her energy I was feeling but it didn't work and her spirit team (or maybe it was mine) told her that she had to hug me, so she came up to hug me and then the waterworks came.
I didn't know why (SK has this effect on you btw :P) and she asked me why I was emotionally freaking out and what was going on and I told her I really didn't know and the tears just kept flowing. She quickly got me on the massage table, did fast paced kinesiology on me and slowly calmed me down by working on my acupressure points. Now that I think about it, I think it was the physical emotional release based on the stuff that MM had done just a few minutes earlier (in fact, when MM was releasing my muscles, he told me to put my hand on my forehead whilst he was doing it - I had asked him at that point if it was an emotional thing and he had said yes).
I also told SK that I had to go vegetarian because meat gave me such terrible headaches and she told me that it was a temporary thing but that I should try chicken - just cut out the red meat. Then because she knew I had been sick, I said "I feel like I've also evolved to another level" and she said "You have. When you get sick for no reason, it's your spiritual team keeping others away from you in terms of you healing them, and you are preparing your physical body to match the higher level that you have evolved to".
I came out of that feeling much better, confident, and I know that when I see my mum today, I'm going to bloody FIX her and fix her for good! The mojo is back!
That in turn led to a downward spiral where I unconsciously did not want to heal anyone, so the healing kitty never came out at work and because I was at that vibrational level, no one came up to me to ask for help, and I was cool with that.
I also felt that things had just stopped for me in terms of continuing down my path. The first client out of my group of friends never turned up as he ended up cancelling his appointment and schedules not lining up, and I hadn't heard a single thing from my college about the timetable and curriculum for the Diploma of Remedial Massage. In my mind, nothing was happening, and I couldn't understand why.
Add on top of that, last week I fell sick. No runny nose, no congestion, more of a big bout of coughing, fatigue, headaches and dizziness. I couldn't meditate, ad when I tried, it'll be stopped by bouts of coughing so I gave up. What the heck was going on?!
Over the past few weeks I had been getting the message of "Explore your options". I didn't know what it meant then, but earlier this week I decided to ask. Turns out the explore your options message was about me exploring my options in a number of areas of my life - the college I will study my remedial massage, my workplace and my friendships with other people.
So I got off my ass and did some research into colleges. I asked MM about any colleges that he knew, and he pointed me to one of them in the city. There were 3 that I was looking at and when I received the curriculum from the college MM was talking about, it looked far from professional, it was cheap and the lady did not answer my question. My gut was saying no way, and again I confirmed that by automatic writing with my guides.
I then somehow made my way to another college - this was is based in St Leonards. No ideal for the girl who lives on the other side of the bridge! Nevertheless, I received a call from a career consultant, and I have to admit, we had a fantastic conversation. He was asking the right questions, wanted to know what my goal for the future was, and when he found out my goal, he told me that the college had contacts in that industry and that was something I should perhaps think about. We were then talking about career changes and he told me he was reminded of his boyfriend when he was speaking to me - his boyfriend is also a lawyer who is looking to get out of the industry. Anyway, that led to an invite for me to meet him in person at the college and he'd take me around and take me through the curriculum so we can see whether the timing met what I needed - from a work perspective and a study perspective. I'd never had someone talk to me like that before about my studies and when he asked me what coffee I wanted waiting for me on Monday, it turns out we drink exactly the same - so we had a good laugh about that :P
Earlier that day, I was at a conference with some of my work mates. I noticed one of the girls tenderly touching her shoulder so I asked her what was wrong and I touched her shoulder. At that point, I knew exactly what was wrong, it was as hard as a rock and she was clearly in discomfort. I decided to go for her occiput region and massage that for just a minute or two and then when I went back to her shoulder, it had turned to mush. She was really impressed and quite frankly, I was chuffed with myself. Her and another workmate started talking about how much I had helped them from a healing perspective and I was really happy for that recognition - it then made me realise that the angels and spirit guides had been telling me all along that I had this - I just had to trust my intuition. It all made sense at that point, and my confidence was on the way back up.
Your intuition is such a powerful tool... Another example of it was my dear friend at work telling me about the pain she was having in her shoulders and I went straight to her jaw. There was no thought, it was "the underlying cause is here". She went to see SK yesterday and it turns out yup it was there, so SK worked it out of her system. Similarly, the same work mate told me about a girl she had referred to SK as well - she told me her family was so worried about her because she was completely drained of energy and had no joy in her life. That's definitely one for SK, but when I was told that, my instant thought was "there is something around her or in her that is draining her energy from a metaphysical perspective". I saw SK very briefly yesterday (I had a treatment with MM) and she confirmed that the poor girl had some daggers or spears in her solar plexus chakra that was the cause of all of the issues.
This week has been about big releases with the new moon and I'm no different to that. The above scenarios are an example of that, but I think the biggest one happened yesterday. MM prefers to work in the moment and has no interest in the "other side" of things, however he does acknowledge that it is there and it freaks him out. That's fine - he grounds me.. he grounds me a lot actually. He was working on a release around my psoas and illiacus area, and was explaining to me that it was the water and fire element that was restricted in my hips, he said there was anger, frustration, guilt, fear and grief that needed to be released. He told me that some was old stuff that just needed a flush, but some stuff was new. MM's practice is NEVER to delve into the emotional aspect because he doesn't want to get sucked into it, and for him, releasing the emotions through the breath is enough.. there is no need to go there. His advice to me is always along these lines. SK is the complete opposite - she goes into the emotions. I think I sit somewhere between both of them. Initially in my practice, I was much more on SK's end of the emotional spectrum, but now I'm coming down to meet the balance... which is good.
Anyway, MM did some craniosacral therapy on me and I knew it released some stuff, but I didn't know what. So I left his session feeling firmly grounded and feeling like playdough. At that point, SK also finished up with her client and waved me into her office so we could have a quick chin wag as, whilst we phone each other during the week, it was the first time I'd seen her in 2 weeks. So there I am chatting to her client (who's a stuntmaster btw) and MM is cracking SK's back (yes it is a funny and chillaxed environment when those two are around). All of a sudden, I could feel my body start vibrating at an incredibly high frequency. As SK's client was still there, I was trying to compose myself and wait for him to leave so I could ask SK what it was. I was freaking out - I didn't know why I was vibrating like that - it had never EVER happened to me before.
SK comes back and I asked her and I put my arm up and you could clearly see it was shaking. She told me she had evolved a number of levels over the past week, so when someone like me is in her presence, her energy amplifies it and I can feel it (I guess this is the same when I'm with MM and he does cranio... my body starts syncing with his because he is also an amplifier). I understood that, but I was like "I need to get this off - it's too much" - my hands were tingling and it was a much stronger sensation to when I feel energy in my hands. So she tried to do the hand thing to me to show me that it was her energy I was feeling but it didn't work and her spirit team (or maybe it was mine) told her that she had to hug me, so she came up to hug me and then the waterworks came.
I didn't know why (SK has this effect on you btw :P) and she asked me why I was emotionally freaking out and what was going on and I told her I really didn't know and the tears just kept flowing. She quickly got me on the massage table, did fast paced kinesiology on me and slowly calmed me down by working on my acupressure points. Now that I think about it, I think it was the physical emotional release based on the stuff that MM had done just a few minutes earlier (in fact, when MM was releasing my muscles, he told me to put my hand on my forehead whilst he was doing it - I had asked him at that point if it was an emotional thing and he had said yes).
I also told SK that I had to go vegetarian because meat gave me such terrible headaches and she told me that it was a temporary thing but that I should try chicken - just cut out the red meat. Then because she knew I had been sick, I said "I feel like I've also evolved to another level" and she said "You have. When you get sick for no reason, it's your spiritual team keeping others away from you in terms of you healing them, and you are preparing your physical body to match the higher level that you have evolved to".
I came out of that feeling much better, confident, and I know that when I see my mum today, I'm going to bloody FIX her and fix her for good! The mojo is back!