Confronting yourself
The past week has been quite big for me in terms of confronting head on my issue of love - whether it is giving or receiving love.
This all started from when I received the Kahuna massage, as it made it quite clear that I still hadn't gotten over a lot of the issues that were blocking me from finding my "true" love. Before then I thought I had to just follow the signs and all of a sudden he'd pop up during my trip at Hamilton Island, but as the week progressed, I realised that nope, the person blocking myself from love was myself (tada).
I, like a lot of people, found it difficult to admit to myself that it was my way of thinking that was blocking meeting someone. "Oh I haven't met anyone because I'm too busy to go out", "it's too expensive for me to go out all the time", "if I go out I will only meet someone if I drink copious amounts of alcohol and I don't want to drink", etc. You get the picture.
There has been someone recently who has perked my interest. I denied it OFTEN and one of my dear friends kept telling me "Er you like him, just admit it". Anyway, I admitted it to myself a few weeks after that conversation with my friend so then my friends were essentially "well what are you going to do about it" sort of thing. Me being me, it was typically "nothing" or "I'm not sure if he's interested" blah blah blah, so once again, my friends were prodding me and I ended up asking if he wanted to go watch a sports match with me and he said yes.
ANYWAY, fast forward and essentially he is the type of person who forcefully confronted me on my issue of blocking love. As we have always been quite open talking about all things spiritual, we were sitting down and he basically said "Look I'm a straight shooter and this is what I see about you - bam bam bam bam". What he said was spot on though and I couldn't deny it. When he tried to get me to figure out what the underlying cause of it was, I was really struggling. If you know me well, I'm not the type of person who struggles with her words and can generally articulate very clearly concepts in my head. Around him, when I'm confronted like that so directly, it's intimidating!
In that respect I think I'm slowly opening up a bit more to things - I am definitely getting better in terms of communicating how I feel... especially if I look back to what I was like over the last couple of years. Also, as the Universe tends to have it, once one block lifts, more things start flowing. The other thing I have found out - and this just started happening on Friday - is that my psychic senses have increased dramatically. For example, I know the answer to certain questions as I ask it, and I will blurt out the answer at exactly the same time as the other person. I'm having a lot more visions than usual, and have "seen" things that were later confirmed as being true. Then comes the things like thinking about how my application to be a registered JP was over the weekend and getting the approval today. Whether this has happened because I am beginning to fix the "giving and receiving love" issue or whether it is because of hanging around this guy, I'm not sure but I just know that things have just gone through the roof when it comes to my abilities now.
I know now that I have to focus a bit more of "giving" the love. Whilst I will happily heal others and come in healing sessions with the intention of love, it has been difficult for me to show others that this "love". Part of this may be because my parents are renown for showing emotions such as love, but again, that's me making an excuse right?
So whether anything will progress with this guy in terms of a relationship I don't know. But this time around I don't want to over analyse the situation and just take each day as it comes, or as a lot of people say "just live in the moment"... and in the meantime, still look forward to my holiday in 2 weeks!
This all started from when I received the Kahuna massage, as it made it quite clear that I still hadn't gotten over a lot of the issues that were blocking me from finding my "true" love. Before then I thought I had to just follow the signs and all of a sudden he'd pop up during my trip at Hamilton Island, but as the week progressed, I realised that nope, the person blocking myself from love was myself (tada).
I, like a lot of people, found it difficult to admit to myself that it was my way of thinking that was blocking meeting someone. "Oh I haven't met anyone because I'm too busy to go out", "it's too expensive for me to go out all the time", "if I go out I will only meet someone if I drink copious amounts of alcohol and I don't want to drink", etc. You get the picture.
There has been someone recently who has perked my interest. I denied it OFTEN and one of my dear friends kept telling me "Er you like him, just admit it". Anyway, I admitted it to myself a few weeks after that conversation with my friend so then my friends were essentially "well what are you going to do about it" sort of thing. Me being me, it was typically "nothing" or "I'm not sure if he's interested" blah blah blah, so once again, my friends were prodding me and I ended up asking if he wanted to go watch a sports match with me and he said yes.
ANYWAY, fast forward and essentially he is the type of person who forcefully confronted me on my issue of blocking love. As we have always been quite open talking about all things spiritual, we were sitting down and he basically said "Look I'm a straight shooter and this is what I see about you - bam bam bam bam". What he said was spot on though and I couldn't deny it. When he tried to get me to figure out what the underlying cause of it was, I was really struggling. If you know me well, I'm not the type of person who struggles with her words and can generally articulate very clearly concepts in my head. Around him, when I'm confronted like that so directly, it's intimidating!
In that respect I think I'm slowly opening up a bit more to things - I am definitely getting better in terms of communicating how I feel... especially if I look back to what I was like over the last couple of years. Also, as the Universe tends to have it, once one block lifts, more things start flowing. The other thing I have found out - and this just started happening on Friday - is that my psychic senses have increased dramatically. For example, I know the answer to certain questions as I ask it, and I will blurt out the answer at exactly the same time as the other person. I'm having a lot more visions than usual, and have "seen" things that were later confirmed as being true. Then comes the things like thinking about how my application to be a registered JP was over the weekend and getting the approval today. Whether this has happened because I am beginning to fix the "giving and receiving love" issue or whether it is because of hanging around this guy, I'm not sure but I just know that things have just gone through the roof when it comes to my abilities now.
I know now that I have to focus a bit more of "giving" the love. Whilst I will happily heal others and come in healing sessions with the intention of love, it has been difficult for me to show others that this "love". Part of this may be because my parents are renown for showing emotions such as love, but again, that's me making an excuse right?
So whether anything will progress with this guy in terms of a relationship I don't know. But this time around I don't want to over analyse the situation and just take each day as it comes, or as a lot of people say "just live in the moment"... and in the meantime, still look forward to my holiday in 2 weeks!